Oh, Love!

I may be a little young to be addressing this right now, but getting to the age of 17, I guess it's normal.

So, love. What is love? I don't know but I want to know. Maybe not now, but later, maybe sooner. Maybe when the time is right.

Of course, it must be amazing. I mean, hearing numerous stories, I think it really must be.

Today, our Spanish teacher was telling us of her past romances, and it was cute! Also sad though. A girl I know also just got engaged. Having cousins who are engaged, knowing people in long-term relationships and so on...

So, of course, it'd be amazing to feel it as long as you can get past things like the heartbreak etc. I mean, like true love, not teenage puppy love. That stuff's fake. I mean, c'mon. It doesn't last forever. Most (key word: most) teenage relationships consist of lust, and not love, but we'll save that for another day now.

So yes, even though I don't want to get married for a while now, and by a while, I mean ages, I can't wait to find someone who loves me as much as I love them (apart from my family) etc.

Also to all those people out there who think they're "forever alone", you're not. Your other half may be on the other side of the planet, or even next door. They might be right in front of you even. You'll find someone eventually who loves you for who you are, so don't give up hope.

P.s. This post is a little all over the place, I had it planned out in my head but I forgot most of it, but yeah.

Selflessness (Karma)

Selflessness: altruism: the quality of unselfish concern for the welfare of others


So, a few people have told me I am too kind, and of course this is a good thing, and well you're welcome. I love being nice to people, doing little things for them, it just makes you feel good about yourself. Not only that, but you earn people's gratitude.

It also brings about good karma. I mean, those that you do good stuff for are going to owe you, and while they may not show it, they will end up showing it in the long-run when you'll really need their help.


However, thinking and thinking, sometimes being too kind can be a bad thing, as people can use that kindness to their advantage, and I guess it does kill you inside. People do suck though, and eh oh well. What can you do about it?

I can't help but put others before myself though. I just don't know how to do it. I always put others needs before mine. Someone teach me please?


I guess, at the end of the day, it's not your loss but theirs. If they don't want to appreciate it, then who cares. Karma will strike them back, and also being a selfless person will earn you good deeds and a good reputations. I love being nice.

Trips

This thought is on my mind like all the time, so it's not really a daily thought but maybe an all time thought? I don't quite know.

Anyway, I always think about how I'd love to go on a trip. Whether it be somewhere for a while. or even interstate. By trip, I mean holiday obviously. If I wanted to take a trip, I'd just trip over something haha!

On a serious note, I have a lot of online friends, and most of them do happen to live interstate. I'd just really love to go and visit them. Not for the sake of that, but also to take a holiday away from here. I just want to go somewhere, enjoy the atmosphere and to clear my mind and just relax.

The last time I actually took a trip was in 2007 when I went overseas to visit family. On the way, we stopped in Singapore for 1 night, and 2 days. However it was unintentional and we just happened to stay there because we missed our plane and it was all QANTAS's fault. I loved it. We were just lucky we got to spend a whole day therefore we took a tour and saw everything. Singapore was amazing. Love to go back one day.

A trip to visit family is still a trip but not really a holiday, I guess? I mean it is, because you get time off everything else happening here (since we went to a different country) and school, but no. Yeah, you get to see your extended family, but people still get all up in your hair and stuff, it's quite annoying. Besides, it's the same old place. I mean, nothing quite exciting about the village that my parents hail from...

Anyway, on the way back... my dad decided to take a stop into China. However, it was horrible. China was good, except NO ONE spoke English! It was hard to get around, but my dad knew this guy over there who could speak Arabic so it was okay. On the other hand, we were sick too, and that was horrible.

So yes, the last trip I took was in 2007. Five years ago. Unless you count that trip up the stairs a few weeks ago at Parramatta Station. Oh, how clumsy I am. Seriously though, I'm just itching to get out of Sydney. I mean, it's the same old thing everyday.

I really want to go to Spain or South America even to visit, as well as have a go at actually using my Spanish speaking skills properly. I'd love to go to Europe! I'd love to go back home to Palestine. I'd love to go to other places in The Middle East like Dubai etc. I'd love to go to the U.S. I'd love to go to the U.K. ugh, I just want to go everywhere!

Take me somewhere! Take me anywhere! Everyone has all these plans to travel and stuff after school ends, and I'm just like Hi, I want to travel too but I highly doubt it's likely that it'll happen... I don't know man, I just have to go somewhere soon.

Anyway this has been a relatively long blog post, I hope I haven't bored you with my rambling..

My Blog Title

You're probably wondering what it means. If you've been guessing, then you're probably right. Bittersweet Dreams. That's exactly what I means.

Dreams that are bitter and sweet. Whether they be dreams you have in life or asleep... it doesn't matter. Most of us use our dreams as an escape, so I've been thinking what's the let down? Dreams or Life?

Most argue life... some argue dreams. I used to think life myself, but life aint all bad when you look at it from a positive view. We really make our problems out to be bigger than they really are and so, thus you get too many first world problems.

In fact, in my opinion... Dreams are the let down. I mean, your dreams and fantasies make you happy, but they also give you high expectations, so you have an amazing dream... but then wake up to life disappointed. Life isn't the disappointment here, Life is just.... life. 

If we're talking dreams as in aspirations here, then I'd say they definitely give us something to look forward to, but one of the main lessons in life is you can't just get whatever you want handed to you on a silver platter. You have to go through life, and endeavour all the hardships to come out as a stronger person, and actually make what was once a dream a reality.

Dreams are great however because they offer something life cannot especially as a child or a teenager. An escape, and I do wonder why people enjoy day dreaming. 

I just wanted to get something out there, and so I couldn't think of anything, but one thing turned into another, so voilà there you go!

Public Speaking

So at school, we had to do two speeches for Studies of Religion and English. I had one earlier for Legal Studies too. I have one due for Modern History soon as well. 4 speeches a year? I know, ridiculous. isn't it? It's what I get for doing mainly History / English subjects I guess.

Moving on, there's a program at school for Public Speaking called Toastmasters. We have to do 2 speeches. One on ourself, and a persuasive speech. No idea what I'm going to do for that. Writing a speech about myself however? No problem, except I'll need to make it real good after some of the ones I heard tonight.

Cutting quite to the chase though, I have a lot to say, but I suck at saying it. Particularly speaking it. Oh, and a speech? Assignment or not. Still suck. I get nervous. Last year, I was shaking from head to toe while delivering my speech for English. I have a really bad speech structure too, which I'll need to work on. I wrote my English speech that was due today in a massive essay structure. I don't even know though. The whole assignment would've been better as an essay.

Anyway, this has been a post. I hope you've enjoyed reading it. Not that interesting, but oh well!

Ciao!

Ramadan

Kul 'am wa intum b'khair / كل عام و أنتم بخير (May you all be well every year)

This is a Ramadan greeting along with Ramadan Mubarak / Ramadan Kareem.

This post is to tell everybody what it really is, and I felt like talking about an important month to me. This is not only an important month to me religiously, but to my heart and soul as well.

Muslim or not, read on. It's interesting, I promise.

Ramadan is not just about fasting. It's more. It's becoming closer to Allah SWT as well. It's perfecting your imperfections in religion too. It's about fixing your mistakes.

To a non-Muslim reading this, why do we fast? We fast as a means of salvation, as well as to feel for the needy and the poor. Like I said though, there's just more to it. We give charity too.

We believe during Ramadan, the gates of Jannah (heaven) open up, and the gates of Jahanam (hell) are locked, with the devil inside. So there's no one to whisper into your ear to do bad things. If it's done, it's purely out of desire or habit. That being said, it's time to get rid of all the Haram in your life, and make room for more Halal. Did I mention you earn multiple the amounts of good deeds for the good things you do? 

I think though, no matter who you are, no matter what your situation is, it shouldn't stop you from being nice to anyone. It shouldn't stop you from doing good things either. There are some really greedy, heartless people out there. Don't be one of them. See a homeless on the street? Give them a few dollars. It won't hurt you. See, a person down that needs help getting up? Help them. See a person that needs help with a simple task? Help them. List goes on, and on.

We take the time to do prayers, dua, and read and listen to more quran every day. Some people totally think it's okay to do this in Ramadan only. No, do it every day. Do good things every day.

I like Ramadan. It teaches you one main lesson in life. Appreciate Always. Appreciate the luxuries you have. Some people have nothing at all, and it just breaks my heart. Appreciate God and what he gave you, and if you don't believe in God, appreciate what the world gave you. You have food, clothes, a warm bed and a roof over your head.

Jews and Christians have similar variations to this, also known as Lent and Yom Kippur. Anyway this has turned into more of an educational post rather than a general one, but I hope you've enjoyed reading it.

School, school, school.

I am sick of the word 'school'. I am sick of everything to do with it. I am sick of just waking up early in the morning for it. Although that last sentence would be the thought of a lazy person, which I'll admit I am.

I have literally got a pile of assignments to do, although I'm slowly getting through them, and working as hard as I can, really. I wish I could drop out but I can't, and I guess school is better than home. Home is boring, and my friends all ditch me anyway so going out would never happen.

Keeping to the relevant topic here, this term should be good... because it's just handing in assignments, and no assessments until week 9 / 10 which is when our yearlies begin. Fun times. Then the pressure truly begins, as we start year 12. So many more fun times. So many more assignments, I look forward to it. (Not really.)

Moving on to year 12. I'll have to try really hard, by using both wits and effort. I can't rely on brains and knowledge alone. I'll have to ace my HSC, otherwise it's repetition or TAFE for me which is where I don't want to end up, or even UWS but I'll pass, thanks.

The thing here though is the future isn't guaranteed. Never. Yeah, we live in Australia where there are multiple opportunities, but still. I mean, who knows... what if I don't get into the course I want? Something along those lines. I guess there is always the other option of being in a band, but with the amount of piracy these days, as well as the rock / punk genre being on a decline, we're not really going to get much out of it unless we're Paramore or Fall Out Boy or something. It's not about the money, but you know, you guys get what I'm saying...

I'm rambling, I know. I'll just cut to the chase. The point here is trying never hurts. All I have to do is just try my best, get good marks, and this ride won't be as painful as I probably make it out to be in my head.

Speaking of school, I'll have to get back to assignmenting. Keep checking back for more posts.

¡ Adios! :)